Things are.....complicated right now. I'm not doing well. I partially blame myself, partially the situation around me. Which, technically I got myself into. I dunno. I don't have an outlet for this kind of stuff, so I came all the way out here to my own personal, quiet corner of the internet. The people close to me don't know it's out here and likely wouldn't even think to look for it. Not sure I'd want them to anyways...there's some weird shit here. I kinda hate the idea of this being my first legit post, but it's ironically appropriate. It's not for them, it's for me. It's for myself. Hell, I'm not even on the subject I came here for, but i